Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Tree house fruition

Aug 9, 2015 bg-tree-house-magic-circle copyRecently, I've decided to tidy up our garden to make it more easily accessible as if it were an extension to our house. On 8/8/15, I've dedicated well spent time to manifest my vision of a zen garden. I've cleared areas for cleanliness, organized and manicured plants for a pleasant presentation and created space with positive energy. Meanwhile I've been picking figs as they are ready to eat. Harvesting figs requires a higher ladder to reach the ones at the very top. So, I've decided to use our taller ladder and have placed it in the most perfect position after experimenting different positions. VIOLA!
Without realizing it, I've reopened my childhood dream. I've always dreamt about spending time on a tree to relax and to admire the beauty of nature from a higher perspective. Now that I've created a safe and easily accessible path with this ladder, I am free to enjoy this blessing. Instantly, I've had thoughts about inviting my cousins to share this wonderful experience and imagining how much fun it would be for all of us. My mother was in the garden with me and I excitedly requested that she climb the ladder. She did!  bg-treehouse-mansion-maintree copy
I love a private garden with beautiful, healthy plants.
I love a garden with open space and accessible paths of comfort.
I love enjoying a garden in peace and quiet.
I love a clean garden.
Thank you for this amazing experience!

Tree house fruition

Aug 9, 2015 bg-tree-house-magic-circle copyRecently, I've decided to tidy up our garden to make it more easily accessible as if it were an extension to our house. On 8/8/15, I've dedicated well spent time to manifest my vision of a zen garden. I've cleared areas for cleanliness, organized and manicured plants for a pleasant presentation and created space with positive energy. Meanwhile I've been picking figs as they are ready to eat. Harvesting figs requires a higher ladder to reach the ones at the very top. So, I've decided to use our taller ladder and have placed it in the most perfect position after experimenting different positions. VIOLA!
Without realizing it, I've reopened my childhood dream. I've always dreamt about spending time on a tree to relax and to admire the beauty of nature from a higher perspective. Now that I've created a safe and easily accessible path with this ladder, I am free to enjoy this blessing. Instantly, I've had thoughts about inviting my cousins to share this wonderful experience and imagining how much fun it would be for all of us. My mother was in the garden with me and I excitedly requested that she climb the ladder. She did!  bg-treehouse-mansion-maintree copy
I love a private garden with beautiful, healthy plants.
I love a garden with open space and accessible paths of comfort.
I love enjoying a garden in peace and quiet.
I love a clean garden.
Thank you for this amazing experience!

"Be Easy About It" - Abraham Hicks

Mar 25, 2015 "Life is supposed to be fun" - Abraham Hicks
Abraham HicksAbraham Hicks is an amazing Law of Attraction teacher who I listen to almost everyday. She talks about how people attract events to their life based on their thoughts and emotions. Basically, like attracts like and we can choose how we want to feel to create our reality.
Sounds easy? It should be. I want to feel good. I want to feel good! But, Why isn't it working? WHY!?
Sometimes, the harder I try, the complete opposite happens. I tell myself that I want to feel good, but I get disappointed that nothing happens. That disappointment sometimes leads to frustration and then defeat.
What am I doing wrong? Here it is!

I've been operating with too much pressure to change. Today I've finally decided to be easy about my thoughts. I've heard Abraham Hicks tell her audience multiple times to "be easy about it", but now it finally resonated, because it has happened to me. I've been trying way too hard to make things happen, attracting more pressure and stress as opposed to the good feeling of ease and happiness.
Let's try to be easy about it!
100414270Sometimes, negative thoughts occupy my mind. If those thoughts continue, momentum builds, adding similar thoughts as it gets faster. Eventually, these thoughts manifest into sweaty and hot body tension. Is that what I want?
Recently, a family member did something that I thought was annoying. These negative thoughts built to a point where I eventually spoke negatively. We exchanged words as it created tension and increased blood pressure. Totally unnecessary, because I was trying to change this person with a bitter tone. I caught myself, stopped and decided to think about something else.
Now I say, "Be easy about it" when I realize any negative thoughts coming. Then I would deliberately create what I really want to experience.
"Life is supposed to be fun" "Be easy about it"
Wonderful!

Reinvention
I practice mindful and positive thinking on a regular basis. My constant reinvention enables me to be more open to share my story.I empower people to follow their happiness and see the world with more love in their hearts.

A Sense of Place

Mar 19, 2015 My first photography seminar opened new doors for my next adventure!
A photographer from the National Geographic magazine discussed her techniques for capturing desirable photos for publication. An important element, which I had lacked in some of my photos, was the concept that conveys a sense of place. Her wide-angle photos engaged viewers with interesting subjects in their environment while eliciting a powerful emotional response. Her landscape photos showed the action and motion of the residences interacting within that environment. Inspired, I've decided to take on a more photo journalistic approach to my photography. Be inspired and branch out!
Sense of placeReflection
Sense of place... I realized that photographer's photos reflect their emotional state of being. The phrase, sense of place, not only represents a photographic concept, but also the photographer's inner essence.
What is my sense of place in this world? How does it affect my photography?
I haven't been conveying sense of place, because I've been more internally focused. My photos showed the closeness of things, which reflects my desire to analyze things closely, in my mind and visually. I have outgrown this phase and naturally began the next stage. Going from less internally focused to more outwardly focused, this seminar was the next logical step in moving forward. The decision to attend my first seminar was easy and the information received truly resonated with my core. This was a great decision!

Reinvention
I practice mindful and positive thinking on a regular basis. My constant reinvention enables me to be more open to share my story.I empower people to follow their happiness and see the world with more love in their hearts.

Shine your light, beautiful star

Mar 12, 2015 Be the starIt is such a privilege to perform as an "extra" or "background" in any production. Directors are notoriously picky about their cast of characters even with their background selection. So, getting a callback is an amazing feeling and it only gets better from there. From the preparations prior till the morning of the shoot, the buildup adds to the overall experience.
After the callback, we may get an email or phone call detailing specifics about our character we are playing. Wardrobe, makeup and props are some of the things to prepare us for the shoot. Finding materials that may work stimulates adrenaline and excitement. Just imagining the possibilities and outcomes for the scene is all fun and games, in a serious way.
It is always interesting to see the other selected "extras" who play co-workers/team members/partner etc. Meeting people is one of the best parts of this experience. Most of the people are just as excited and happy to work as I am! That's a lot of positive energy until that energy runs out...
Be the Star
Be the StarOn a recent shoot, I brought at least three different outfits that would fit the mould of a London Designer. Beyond happy, I got to play a character that wasn't stereotypically Asian. Plus, they've chosen me to play one of four designers, which sent me over the moon since that meant that I looked like a designer. Amazing! Fitted plaid shirts, slacks and shoes created my character's wardrobe. I had most of those things and paired all of my looks together. Exciting!
I prepared myself for an amazing day when I arrived on set. As usual, we signed the mandatory paper work to get paid. I met my co-workers who turned out to be engaging, friendly and amazing people! Then, we went to the dressing room to have our clothes evaluated for our on-screen looks. They paired up my clothes a little differently, but I didn't mind. We were all excited and ready to be in front of the camera!
But, we learned that our session wasn't until 4pm and it was only 12pm. Why did they ask us to get there at 11am if they weren't going to need us till 4pm? That's 5 hours! The reality of actor and background work.
The four of us entertained each other in the dressing room while we waited. So, I recreated a popular childhood fortune-teller game out of a napkin with fun ideas. We got to know each other very well, but I had spent a lot of my energy animated and engaged. When the time came to perform, my energy took a nap. It felt like we just came back from an outing with friends and it was time to go home. I isolated myself while the other three conversed amongst themselves. Downhill...
Why did my energy go from super positive to super low in one day? Was it something else deeper that I wasn't aware of? YES!

Shining star
Be the StarI realized that I let other people get to me. Maybe after four hours of interacting with the same people, I eventually let some of their comments affect me. On auto pilot, I shut people out because either I didn't relate to them or I didn't have anything to say. I started the day as excited as ever to work on a production, but slowly my energy decreased when I couldn't interact with people the way I wanted. Does that sound normal? I've operated as such for the longest time, but not anymore. Why let anyone rain on my parade? I have control over my choices. 
I know that I can do anything as long as I focus. I know that we all have unlimited amounts of energy. It is our motivation that keeps us going. But we need to motivate ourselves to keep going. Stay strong and keep up the desired energy.
Be the star
During my most recent gig, I decided to practice what I had realized about my motivation levels. Luckily for me, on this particular shoot, the other three extras and I didn't have much in common. So it was the perfect time to practice. Why shut out people who we don't supposedly relate to? I wanted to continue to shine the light that is me. Just be myself and not let my perception of others get to me.
I took initiative. When my energy dwindled, I created dialog which led to more dialog. I spoke from the heart and related to people when I had the chance. I seized every opportunity to engage with people in a positive way. At the end, I shook everyone's hand as I left. It felt good to be proactively positive. Being the star is amazing!
Do it all the time!

Reinvention
I practice mindful and positive thinking on a regular basis. My constant reinvention enables me to be more open to share my story.I empower people to follow their happiness and see the world with more love in their hearts.

Expand your talents now!

Mar 5, 2015
Talent
Having signed with several casting agencies is fun! We fill out an actor's resume, which lists our special abilities and talents with our photos. Then, we become active within their database of many talents, including actors, singers, dancer etc. At one agency, we get access to their job board, where directors post specifics for interested talents to apply. When I signed up, I was only applying for background work for movies, commercials and television. But there are other opportunities for those who want to expand their horizons.
Talent!I know I did!
In December of 2014, a posted ad was looking for "models" to do a photo shoot. It was for an online lifestyle site, which I had researched before applying. I recalled having seen their site on my Facebook feed, so it felt legitimate. The people who modeled were everyday people, so I felt more confident in applying. The anticipation after I submitted was exciting. They contacted me days later stating that they liked my faux hawk and wanted me to participate! Celebrate! I was extremely happy to do my first published photo shoot ever!
But, I was also insecure with my preconceived notion of models and photo shoots. Even knowing that these models were everyday looking people and that the director liked my look, I had doubts and went into my I'm-not-worthy thoughts.
I'm not tall or good-looking enough. They made a horrible mistake of casting me. I kept playing my insecurities, but I had some reasoning in my head too. I mean... my height and weight was on my actor's resume, so they should know. Maybe they'll send me home when they see what a mistake they've made. Oh, the embarrassment. I should just cancel now... 
I attended the photo shoot with much excited anticipation. The director informed me that there was going to be three girls and I was one of two guys. I went upstairs to see a tall female who told me she was from a modeling agency.
Oh my god! A real model! Panic! What am I doing here?
She asked me how long I've modeled for, which boosted my ego with much surprise, but I still felt unworthy. I told her the truth. Since I was a baby! I didn't say that. I told her it was my first photo shoot ever.
Another female walked in and she was just as tall and gorgeous! Oh no... What am I doing here really? Am I going to be the nerd they humiliate in these photos? Why did I put myself in these situations!? I feel so short compared to these ladies! And they are wearing high heels! I hope the other male would be taller than them. I'm going to remain sitting...
The two models made friendly conversation and I felt better about my presence. The third female showed up next, but I felt comfortable and stopped the self-deprecating thoughts to focus on the positive thoughts. I became more open as they became more open. Those negative thoughts slowly drifted away while positive thoughts came through. The other male did not show up at all, so we got started with the shoot. We had an awesome time acting out different scenarios and playing different roles as we got photographed. I loved my first experience.
Real Talent
My negative thoughts from my insecurities took away from my positive energy. But, this experience felt relevant to my realization of negative perception about my appearance. I let my definition of "model" and me become two separate conflicting entities. I've always been insecure with my lack of height and looks, so those beliefs carried over to this experience. It was helpful that these people were friendly, but the real lesson is to fully believe in myself and not let any negative factors distract from my positivity.
My second photo shoot is on 3/7/15 and I am ecstatic with all positive thoughts! I will shine all of my light for everyone to see.

Reinvention
I practice mindful and positive thinking on a regular basis. My constant reinvention enables me to be more open to share my story.I empower people to follow their happiness and see the world with more love in their hearts.

With great light, comes great darkness

Feb 25, 2015 With great light, comes great darknessMy spiritual growth has taken on a whole new level. LEVEL 99! (but who is keeping track)

Since learning about positive thinking and living, I've been focused primarily on the positive aspects of my life. By doing so, I've also created many formulas for positive success in my daily routine to fully engage in this uplifting journey. Junk, unhealthy and negative thoughts got eliminated while positivity took center stage!
No more mainstream television! Why? Because it causes unnecessary drama, biased brainwashing and negativity to my well-being. What do I do instead? Watch talks about positive thinking, energy and lifestyle on YouTube. Great idea!
No more junk food or alcohol! Why? Because it doesn't add any vital nutrients to our system and damages our body. What do I eat instead? Drink lots of water and eat lots of fruits and nuts. Yummy!
No more negative thinking! Why? Because law of attraction brings more negative thinking when we think negatively. What do I end up doing? Only think positive thoughts! Or... slowly go crazy and not realize it...
I'm a positive thinker attracting positive thoughts and outcomes! Why do I still feel stuck? This is the right path for me! Isn't it?
Allow the lightA friend, who I confided in with my dilemma, gave me his perspective on life. He kept on saying negative statements such as "The dark is always stronger" and "It's easier to be negative", which goes against everything that I've learned. How dare he lure me back to the dark side after taking five years to climb out! Oops! That's some quick judgement! BAD!
As I pondered on my friend's feedback, some statements from positive talks online came forth and then something clicked!
Spiritual growth requires the dark side, otherwise known as contrast, to move forward. To embrace both the light and the dark is to make progress. "Contrast to grow" is a popular talked about many times on YouTube, but I wasn't in the right mind state to receive and comprehend it as I focused primarily on the positivity topics. I gave into the dark side a little more and then it hit me!
I realized that my overbearing negativity restrictions held me back from living my life. I completely focused on the positive and ignored anything negative that came my way. My positive thinking routine bounded me from freedom to fully live and experience life. My formula for positive success backfired yet relief from this realization poured in. Time for a new formula...

With great light, comes great darkness

With great light, comes great darknessBalance is the key to happiness and growth. Light/positive and dark/negative experiences are both relevant to maintaining a healthy balance. I will allow thoughts and things to naturally arise/fall and will act accordingly without major restrictions.
Up until 2010, I had operated with about 5% optimism, but now my optimism is about 90%. So, I am grateful to have gone through the positive learning phase to give optimistic thoughts a growing chance. The strict formula worked at the beginning when I started. But now, the outdated formula doesn't apply to me anymore, so the next logical step is to reevaluate to maintain a balance of light and dark. I will enjoy my life and do things as I please with positivity and will be mindful of the negativity for that balance. With great light, comes great darkness...
I have graduated to the next level! Level 99!

Reinvention
I practice mindful and positive thinking on a regular basis. My constant reinvention enables me to be more open to share my story.I empower people to follow their happiness and see the world with more love in their hearts.